Friday, June 1, 2012

Celebrating the Baptism of the twins.

Two weeks ago we had a lot to celebrate. Our ten year anniversary &
most importantly the Baptism of the twins. It was beautiful and so meaningful to our entire family. The first on my bucket list of doing milestones with the twins. There will be many of them. Many I never thought that I would be able to experiecne.

Over their isolette I prayed down upon each of them. Anytime at the begining I would hear a beep or a buzz I would feel my heart drop to the bottom of my tummy.  I would reach in and hand hold one of them at a time, always longing for the time that I could hold them and  be with them at the same time. Baby B was never able to be held for very long all the way until the end of his stay. It would just be way to much for him. Baby F would just lay on me and cuddle. He still loves to cuddle. Anyway's, when I would hand hold them I would pray with everthing I had in me, my entier being and with my entire soul. 

One day when both of my boys were having a pretty hard day, a really hard day on this mama. I prayed that I would raise them in a walk and relationship with God. Now until this I hadn't been to great with my own walk with God. It had been a number of years that I had in most was turned my back and walked the other way all together. The reason now doesn't make sense but this is what I thought at the time. I was so overwhelmed with being childless and not having a baby to call my own to hold close and to love was at times to much for me to bare. I couldn't understand why I was the one that couldn't have children when people I know could pop them out like thier Vajayjay was a freaking clown car!  I was angry with God because of that, so hurt and upset that I walked away from all my beliefs. I now know that this is what he needed me to go through to come back.  The first day that they were in the NICU I went to the Chapel at the hospital from then on I was there everyday, sometimes more then once. I prayed one day so hard in that prayer I prayed this:

Heavenly father,
I pray that you will save my babies, that you will show me how to parent and be the best mommy to the two of them. I will remember every second of everyday that you are the one the blessed me with these two precious gifts that only you Lord God could so wonderfuly give to us. I promise that I will raise them up to love you and honor you Lord, I promise that they will be children of God and I will show them by the way I live my life in a way that will honor you lord. Please just save their lives. I couldn't imagine what I would do if they were taken from me now. I don't think I could make it through that great of loss. I don't think you Lord would make it possible to have these babies created from Hubs and I, carried by Chrystal. Bringing famlies closer and truly showing people the great love our family has for one another.
Please Lord allow me to raise my beautiful boys for them to be men of God. They are made to do great things. The first thing I will do when they are strong enough is to have them be celebrated as your children at their baptism. Please Lord just make them live.

In Jesus name,

Time past and they got strong enough to start planning their baptism. It is the first thing I did. I didn't ask that God would make them perfect, I prayed he would save them. No matter what they will always be perfect to me. Having them at the NICU made me remember my walk with God. It made me the person I use to be, before I was sick, before I turned into someone I wasn't that proud of. I didn't know how different I was without God or my boys.
Pastor Coe, from Grace Luthern Church  in Port Townsend was amazing to our boys and to our family. The entire service was centered around the boys and their goals we have to all hold them up to. We were so welcomed and so loved. The entire church was so warm and inviting. One thing I didn't know at the time that was going to happen was that we would find a church to call home. We will take the boys to this chuch and celebrate milestones and moments in our lives as a family.  Hub's will have Sundays off this summer so we are going to go up as much as we can to attend our church.

The God parents were choosen for the love they have showed our boys sense even before they were born. Baby F's God parents are Bon & Chrystal. & Baby B is Erin & Allie. The only sister that was left out is Kerry and she is the best Auntie in the entire world. Turth be told my boys have the best Aunties ever. They are so blessed with the family that they were born into. All the love they have for them is amazing. This event made us all so much closer.  I can't wait to cross the next event and milestone off the baby bucket list.
Our Beautiful Family!


Thursday, May 31, 2012

Do you ever want to run away?

I have been feeling like I just need to run away. Not from my family, to my family. Not from my friends but to start fresh, I had a ton of people that viewed my blog. Now the amount of people are down a little bit. Do I let this one go and start another one filled with things I am into now? Do I re-vamp this and go from there instead?

I don't feel like I can leave this completely. I love to write, I love to blog. I love the community of blogging. I loved the direction that writing was bringing me and where it brought me. Now I have to figure it out. I waited to blog untill I got the boys home, then I waited until things settled down. Now I am getting in the swing of things and slowly starting to find my way back to writing.

I never know where I will go or where my writing will take me. I would just like to try and figure it out. I need something that the boys can look back on and read and be proud of me for.
I use to write about great places I traveld to and events I was part of. I want to do this but center this around being a parent. If you read my blog I would love to hear your thoughts.

I have to find a direction and hopefully do it soon. What do you like to read? What would you rather not have to read?


Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Wordless Wednesday

I can't wait for out Memorail day BBQ. It makes me feel like its the start of the fun summer times.


Tempt my Tummy Tuesday.

This is the best Recipe, it is easy and great for all sorts of meats. I'm doing a bundle of BBQ sauces for fathers day. Pour it in a mason jar and then cut up a bandana and add a thin rope to tie it all together. This is the first post  that I will post until fathers day. Enjoy!

Sweet and Simple BBQ Sauce.

                                                         Thank you Goole for the picture!
  • 1/2 (1 ounce) package dry onion soup mix ( I use lipton.)
  • 1/2 cup packed Brown Sugar.
  • 2 cups ketchup
  • 1 tablespoon Worcestershire sauce
  • 1/2 tablespoon liquid smoke.
  • 1/2 teaspoon honey


  1. In a medium bowl, mix together onion soup mix, sugar, honey, ketchup, liquid smoke and Worcestershire sauce.
  2. Warm up on low.
  3. Add it to mason jar let cool.
  4. add decoration and enjoy this for yourself or that Guy in your life.


Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Wordless Wednesday.

We had a Dr's appointment in down town Seattle and we took the time to spend the day with afterward sightseeing a little bit down town Seattle. There is no other place on earth that is more beautiful then that of the Seattle skyline on a beautiful sunny day, The water looks like diamonds dancing on top of it.
The ferry ride back to the Peninsula was breathe taking. I am lucky to live in this beautiful place and call it home.


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Mishaps and advenures in mommyhood.

I use to have the time to sit and write everyday. Being able to go at a moments notice to do these fab hotel reviews and wonderful nights out on the town. Sharing with my readers the places to go, food to try and play and productions to get tickets to and go enjoy. My goal was to always help women in business in the local area and beyond. I thought I was busy then......

Then at the 28 mark of the birth of my twin boys things changed, things became busy but I still had time to write and review. Then after a few months in the NICU baby F got to come home on Christmas eve, the very best gift a mommy could have gotten I was so torn at that very moment I came to understand that no matter what unless my boys were together I would feel torn and missing the other. 

It took a little over a month until Baby B could come home. He had some problems I wont get into it now, but when he did get home having two babies and the trying to do the balancing followed. I thought that I knew it all and boy oh boy I had no idea.

My journey into motherhood was not what the normal way in to which most have babies, the way I did it was what you hear about on the cover of US weekly. What you think Stars do so that they don't gain any weight of have any of that pain that goes into child birth. My story is nothing like that, my dream my entire life was to be a mama, my family knew that and when all the stars in the sky were in the right order and my cousin who is more like my sister decided to help me make my dream come true of having a little person call me mommy!

Lucky for me, I got the best buy one get one free deal ever. When they told us we were having twins my heart about exploded, first with delight and being over joyed, then next fear and self doubt that follwed me around. How the heck could I be a mommy to two babies at once. Piece of cake right?  WRONG! :)

I know this so far:  I'm very very far from being a perfect parent and I have so much to learn. What I know for sure is that this is the life I have always wanted and I'm not the same person I was 6 months ago and I thank the Lord above about that! F&B made me a completely different person, a mommy. How they grow up and treat me will be how they love and treat their families later in life. I can't mess this up like so many things I have messed up in my life before this.
This sounds crazy but I truly feel like I was born the day they were.

I decided that as a blogger who is now a mommy, that I would write more about that. I will still do posts about what is fun and hotel reviews that are kid friendly, how when we plan a trip to Disney on a shoe string budget.  I will tell you of places to eat that don't give you the hairy eyeball if your kid screams or makes a mess on the table or in his pants.  There will be laugter till you cry reading what I am going through, and at times crying until you laugh with me.  I will be painfully truthful of my misguided attempts at doing the best at rasing these beautiful baby boys and not driving away my husband.

I invite you on this journey.



Monday, March 5, 2012

Tempt my Tummy Tuesday!!!

I found this recipe through Pinterest, and found this wonderful website though, it has an amazing group of vegan recipes and I found this one and completely feel in love. I will go back to this site for some pretty amazing recipes. My world is again much brighter with Pinterest!

Pan-Seared Pressed Tofu with Apples and Champagne Vinaigrette
Vegetarian, vegan, and gluten-free
Serves 2 as a light lunch or 4 as a side dish
For the dressing
  • 2 tablespoons champagne vinegar
  • 3 teaspoons minced shallot
  • Leaves from 2 sprigs of fresh thyme
  • 1 teaspoon Kosher salt
  • 1/4 cup extra-virgin olive oil
  1. In a small bowl, stir together the vinegar, shallot, thyme and salt. Allow to stand for ten minutes. Drizzle in the olive oil while whisking to emulsify. Taste and adjust seasoning. Reserve.
To finish
  • 2 tablespoons vegetable oil
  • 9 ounces pressed tofu (the kind that is completely firm and generally already brown with some soy sauce on the outside), cut into approximately 1″ x 1″ x 1/2″ squares [note: if you need gluten-free you'll need to inquire about the soy sauce!]
  • Reserved dressing
  • 1 large or 2 medium crisp, sweet apples, cored and cut into 16 slices each (Braeburns work well)
  • 1/2 cup pomegranate seeds
  • Freshly ground black pepper
  • Flaky sea salt
  1. Place a large skillet over high heat. Add the oil, and when it is shimmering, add the tofu in a single layer. Cook until well browned on one side, then flip and cook the other side. Remove to a medium bowl with a slotted spoon.
  2. Pour the dressing over the tofu and toss. Add the apples and pomegranate seeds and toss again. Taste and adjust seasoning. Divide among serving bowls and finish with generous amounts of black pepper and flaky salt.


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